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And then there was silence.

At present I am unoccupied on Sundays.  It’s a glorious thing.  There is nothing forcing me anywhere at any specific time.  I can go anywhere I want, to any church I want or even not to church if I’m so inclined.  I’m currently on a three week break and I’m really enjoying it.  I was a little burnt out, tired of always being the cheerleader and I needed some time alone.

As a serious introvert I do need time away.  I need quiet time in the day to relax and unwind.  When I’m working I often loose that time as I keep X. company during the day, visit with my husband at night and manage to cram work in.   On top of that I am apparently an empath {or at least my husband jokingly calls me that} and I have a tendency to feel the feelings of the people around me.  This can be a good and a bad thing at times.

Usually I have barriers in place to keep myself happy and at peace.  Lately it’s just all gotten to be too much.  Every church I went to had some type of anxiety, fear, worry or hesitation.  So many voices.  So many questions.  So many demands. I know it’s the way things are but it was wearing me down so I took a break.  And then there was silence…

The silence has been wonderful.  With the voices gone, I’ve sunk into life.  I’ve felt God’s presence.  I’ve embraced comfortable jeans, watched movies with my husband and dug in my garden.  I’ve prayed and prayed.  I’ve read and debated.  I’ve sat in silence and marveled at the world around me.   The anxiety and fear are not present here.   There is no worry or hesitation.  In my house there is peace.

I love peace.

Feeling peace is incredible.  It doesn’t mean there aren’t moments of passion or heated debate.  It doesn’t mean there aren’t questions or moments of wonder.  It just means that through it all you know things are ok, God is there and will continue to be there. I wish the church could feel this peace, could embrace God’s presence and feel peace as it walks through this time of transition.

I will continue to enjoy my time.  I will watch my brother and sister graduate, enjoy picnics in the park and maybe take in a show or two.  The time will pass to quickly and soon I will be back to work.  Until then I’ll exist in the silence, I will embrace the gift of time that God has given me.

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I’d love to know how you recharge when you’re feeling overwhelmed?  Leave a comment below…

Easter is hard.

Easter is hard. Jesus starts the week triumphant, riding on a donkey. He ends it on a cross.  In between there is pain. There is agony. There are questions.  Then comes death.  Emotions run high.  Despair and emptiness are almost felt in the air.  That emptiness lingered when he was gone. Amplified by his absence.

Swirling in the disciples minds are thoughts of anguish and despair.
Ashamed at their actions, horrified by their decisions, they hide and mourn. Then something changed. The world was somehow different. The rock is rolled away. The tomb is vacated. Before the women arrive, hope returns but no one knows it yet.  When the women arrive, hope starts to spread.  Life springs forth. Everything is new once more.

Easter is hard. We want to skip over the bad parts, to travel right from the triumphant entry into the empty tomb.  We want to travel from hope into hope.

Given the choice, we would gloss over the real parts, we would ignore the ugliness of humanity.  These parts of the story resonate too deeply in our souls.  But if we allow ourselves to live the story, to go from start to finish we find something incredible.  In despair we see God. In ugliness we find beauty. In darkness we find light.  In shame we find forgiveness.  Through it all, we see Jesus.

We see Jesus.
The one who brings hope. The one who is light. The one who is.

When we enter the story we see Jesus.  That’s what’s truly hard.  Seeing Jesus forces us to confront his place in our lives. Seeing Jesus forces us to let him in. When we let Jesus in our lives change.  Easter changes us and change can be scary.

Don’t be afraid to let Jesus in this week. Easter may be hard, but nothing great ever came easily.  Just ask Jesus…

An open letter to Courtney Stodden

Dear Courtney,

We don’t know each other but I feel connected to you somehow.  It may have something to do with the countless hits I get daily from people searching for news on you, your clothing and {lately} some rather interesting body parts.  How surprised they must be when they happen upon a website run by a minister/mother who said you would be welcome in their church.  I’m sure my site is not what they were looking for.

We have a few things in common.  We’re both vegetarian and devout Christians. My twitter feed tends to be a little tamer than yours but I do update regularly so that’s another thing we both enjoy.  I’m into fashion as well.  But where you like feather boas and giant stilettos, I tend to lean towards accent scarves and cute ballerina flats.

I guess from there the similarities end. At 17 I was often found tucked in my bedroom reading magazines, dreaming of my future and trying to find a way to finish the homework I’d left to the last minute.  I wasn’t married and famous.  I didn’t even have a boyfriends.  I didn’t have to put on a show every time I went with my friends and believe me that’s a good thing.  I enjoyed my friends and loved goofing off.

I wonder what it must be like for you, to be 17 and hyper-sexualized.  To think that the only thing that matters to other people is how you look and how you dress.  I wonder if you’re able to have a normal teenage day.  Do you have friends and goof around?  Do you go to football games and pep rallies?  Do you ever get to take off the mask and just be you?

I’d love to get to know you.  To find out what really matters to you. Most of all, I’d love to give you a hug and tell you it’s okay to be 17.  You’ve got all the time in the world to be an adult but only moments left of that precious time called adolescence.

Take care of yourself,

Becky

The Lorax

I really want to see the Lorax.  Luckily I live with a little guy so I have the perfect excuse to go to this movie.  I can pretend it’s all about him.  Seriously though, I love the message of the Lorax and want my son to realize how truthful this line is:

“Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better.  It’s not.” – The Lorax by Dr. Seuss


Am I the only one who wants to see this movie?  Please tell me I’m not alone!

Random Thought Thursday: February 23rd Edition

  1. I have forced myself to get active once more. My treadmill has been giving me the evil eye every time I go downstairs to watch t.v. and I have these dreams that I will become a runner.  I stink at running but a girl can dream and any kind of exercise is good for me.
  2. I may have purchased some new TOMS for spring.  They are so cute and it gives someone else a pair of shoes.   I’m quite excited for warm, non-rainy weather to wear them!
  3. This week at the Olive Garden my favorite sweater was destroyed when our lovely {and I mean that sincerely} waitress accidentally poured wine all over it.  I wasn’t angry but am so sad about it.  I know I shouldn’t be attached to things but it was just so comfy.
  4. There are buds on the tree next door, the sap is running in the trees and there are spring decorations in my home.  I might be pushing it but I’m looking forward to warmer weather and a little sunshine.  I love spring!
  5. Now that we’ve caught up on Storage Wars and are anxiously awaiting new episodes we’ve been forced to turn to Pawn Stars in replacement.  I find myself sucked in by the history behind artifacts and love seeing unique pieces.  We’ve really been enjoying it lately.

Random Thought Thursday: February 9th Edition

  1. I have big plans for this weekend that include applesauce and peanut butter cookies.  Usually this means we relax do almost nothing but a girl can dream!
  2. X. has two teeth left to come in.  Once they arrive I’m throwing a party.  It’s been difficult for X. in the last little while and I look forward to happier days for him.  I hope it happens soon!
  3. I wonder if Gisele’s comments about the Patriots receivers will be the Yoko Ono moment of Tom Brady’s career.  Is it all downhill from here?  Time will tell.  I’m so glad I don’t have people following me around with cameras to catch all the stupid things I say.  Celebrity isn’t a good thing all the time.
  4. I haven’t gotten into Pinterest.  Everyone else seems to love it and spend loads of time pinning things.  I’m not really sure if it’s a good idea. Do I need another way to waste time on the internet?  Is it really as good as everyone says?
  5. It’s getting close to Lent.  I’ve got my pancakes lined up and am ready for the pancake party but am trying to figure out what to do for Lent itself. Should I have a blog meditation series? Should we do the Daniel fast then? Should I pick a book and read it?  I want to do something to prepare for Easter and am just tossing around a few ideas.  If you have any suggestions let me know.  I’d love to hear what you’re doing or would like to do {alone or as a community}

Random Thought Thursday: December 8th Edition

  1. Life here has been incredibly busy but fun.  We’ve been to parades and dinners.  We’ve sat around the tree, gabbed with friends and just enjoyed the season.  While I wouldn’t mind a day at home I really treasure this time of year when everyone comes together.
  2. My baking has been a bust so far.  It’s been good, don’t get me wrong but I haven’t found that perfect cookie/square to complete the holiday round up.  I hope this week will be better on the baking front.
  3. I think I might be killing my blender with smoothies.  It makes a horrible groaning sound and I’m afraid it will explode any day now.  I’m sure there will be sales after Christmas if it does die so I’m not terribly worried.  It’s given me 5 solid years and I’ve somewhat abused it.
  4. Football is brutal!  I’m so close and yet so far away from the playoffs. It comes down to this weekend, and these match-ups.  It feels wrong to hope others will lose and yet I cannot deny that I long for a spot in the championship.  Wish me luck!
  5. I have no Christmas gifts purchased.  I am working on some of the homemade gifts I have planned.  Never before have I been this far behind!  This weekend I must catch up and get organized.  Wish me luck!

Enjoy this week and Merry Christmas!  I hope you’re enjoying the season.

Banana Muffins

Banana muffins are one of my all time favorite things.  I adore bananas in baking and yesterday when I saw three lonely bananas hanging from a hook, I knew I had to use them.  My traditional banana bread recipe has too much fat to be considered healthy (although it is delicious) and the alternate recipe I used instead was missing that special something that banana bread requires.  Here’s my new, improved recipe.  It retains the flavor of the original but is much healthier!  If you ever find yourself with some over ripe bananas that need to be used, this is the recipe you should try.  Enjoy!

Banana Muffins

Ingredients:

  • 3 ripe bananas (the riper the better!)
  • 1/4 c soy milk
  • 1/2 tbsp apple cider vinegar
  • 1 c cane sugar
  • 2 c whole wheat pastry flour
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 1/2 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp baking powder

Instructions:

  • Preheat the oven to 350 degrees.
  • Line a 12 c muffin tin with liners and lightly spray with baking spray.
  • Mix soy milk and apple cider vinegar together and set aside.
  • Mash the bananas.
  • Add the sugar to the bananas.
  • Sift the flour, salt, baking soda and baking powder today.
  • Add the dry ingredients and the soy milk mixture to the bananas.
  • Stir the ingredients together until well combined but do not over mix.
  • Fill your muffin tins and then bake in the oven for 23-27 minutes or until done.
  • Enjoy!

Extra Instructions:

  • When you are cooking with no fat the liners can stick to the muffins.  This is why I spray the liners before filling them with the mixture so that removal is easy when you want to eat.
  • Feel free to add chocolate chips, nuts or other additions to make this recipe your own.
  • Do not overbake!  Seriously!  Because there is no fat in them they will dry out quite quickly if left in too long.  Watch them closely.

Random Thought Thursday: November 24th Edition (and a Happy Thanksgiving to my American Friends!)

  1. Happy Thanksgiving to my American Friends!  To those of you who may be Canadian, happy random Thursday in the middle of November when there happens to be football on the television, amazing sales in stores and a general sense of the festive everywhere you go.
  2. My attempts at learning to crochet aren’t going terribly.  I’ve finally got the hang of it and my tension’s not that bad.  Looking forward to the scarf being finished so I can wear it.  The yarn is incredibly soft and I’m in love with the colour.
  3. I can’t believe it’s so close to Christmas!  The Advent Project begins in less than one week.  Please join in!  It’s fun, free and hopefully will add some meaning to the season.
  4. This week I will be attempting to make peppermint sugar cookies.  If they are good I will definitely post the recipe.  I may also attempt some gingerbread.  I have the best gingerbread recipe but it’s quite fussy so I’m hoping to simplify it and still have cookie heaven.
  5. I’m hoping to end the day with a little National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation but if it doesn’t happen, it will before the weekend is through.  Enjoy this time.  It really is beginning to look at lot like Christmas!

Tim Tebow is?

Tim Tebow is______________

  1. A man of Faith
  2. A terrible traditional Quarterback
  3. Luckiest guy alive
  4. All of the above?

Tim Tebow is driving me insane right now.  Not for the reasons that you might think.  He’s bad in a traditional sense but he gets the job done.  He is a hard worker.  That said Tim Tebow bothers me a little.  Why?  I think it is the seemingly insane devotion my husband possesses for him.  I don’t get it. The guy isn’t that good.

Good or bad, in the grand scheme of life it doesn’t really matter to me.  He’s not on my fantasy team so his performance isn’t relevant.  He doesn’t play for my team so I’m not biting my nails during his games.  He’s not really on my Sunday radar football wise but I do have to say I am impressed with his authenticity.  From what I’ve seen he’s a man of faith and he lives it.  He leads people in prayer.  He shares the Gospel.  He is someone who acts in accordance with his beliefs and that’s ok by me.

Just because I think he’s ok, doesn’t mean I think he’s awesome.  I’ve heard all kinds of positives and negatives.  Here’s what I think:

Do I believe he’s the next Jesus?  No.  I believe Jesus is the next Jesus.

Will I be jumping up and down on the sidelines professing my undying love for him because he’s a Christian?  No.  He’s not that good.

Will you see me quietly thinking he’s ok because he sucks but seems to pull through in the end?  Absolutely.

Love him or hate him, Tim Tebow is the ultimate example for us in our lives.  When we stink {really stink} we need to keep fighting. If we keep fighting things may turn around.  We might get two good drives for 36 fantasy points and life would be looking pretty good.

When life gets tough, think Tim Tebow.  For 90% of the game he’s mediocre but when he shines, he’s on top.  We all get our moment to shine.  You’ve just got to work hard to get there….

{This post is dedicated to my loving husband who requested a Tim Tebow post.  In return I request that you stop talking about him.}