I’m getting tired. The negativity around me in the Church setting is eating at my core. I’m over it people. It’s time to move on and find a better way, a positive way. Perhaps we need to find the Jesus way. I’d like to thank everyone who has submitted unsolicited advice on my future career options but I’m not ready to leave. I guess I’m the type of girl who will go down with the ship.
I’m tired of the chaos. I’m tired of the anger. I’m tired of the people fighting, and crying and lamenting. I want to pull a Moses and go climb up a mountain to get away from all the complaints. Change is happening. Not because I want it, or you want it. It’s not because ‘Jane’ decided we should go this way or ‘George’ thought we should go that way. Change is happening because God wants change. We aren’t doing what we should be doing. We’re being pushed in the direction God wants us to go.
Life is all about change. We are born into change. We are change. When will we accept that nothing stays the same forever?
This week I came across a song from the 1990’s called Closing Time by the band Semisonic. There is a verse in the middle of the song that really speaks to the change we are experiencing, “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end”. We are experiencing the end. We are living the end of what we know. But it doesn’t have to be a permanent end. It could be the beginning of something. It could be great if we make the choice to follow God’s will and work towards something better.
It might be last call for us now but as we all know bars reopen the next day and we can too. We could experience renewal and growth but we have to be open to the movement of the spirit. Digging our heals in, refusing to change and wallowing in negativity is getting us nowhere. It’s time to change. We must change.
It’s last call. Everyone knows the night gets more interesting after the bar shuts down…